Balancing my Chakras

Throughout the course of the Fall, my yoga trainer taught a series of yoga classes focused on the chakras. As part of the series, I did a series of meditations for each chakra and drew how I felt my chakra was at the moment, and then how I wanted it to be. It was a very healing experience, that I had been meaning to share here for a while.

The main overarching theme is that I realized throughout the series of meditations is my tendency to be too small, to not full expand into my body and beyond. To not tap into my full potential, power, and energy.

Chakra 1 -- Root Chakra -- Earth, Physical identity, oriented to self-preservation
Currently: I feel crowded and stunted. Not enough space to grow roots to grow bigger. I am starting to grow roots out of the right side of my body and have a lot of support in my life. I need more space to grow bigger in spirit. I need to believe there are unlimited resources and I can have more without taking from others.


I want to be grounded and spacious and bigger -- fully supported and solid.


Chakra 2 -- Sacral Chakra -- Water, Emotional identity, oriented to self-gratification
Currently: My water has been blocked and has created a stagnant pool with some dirt and grit that needs to be filtered. It is off balance and only a trickle instead of cool, fresh, cleansing, running water.

I want strong, clean, clean, fresh water flowing through me. I want to be a unified whole with the dirt and debris filtered out and removed from my system.

Chakra 3 -- Solar Plexus Chakra -- Fire, Ego identity, oriented to self-definition
Currently my fire is contained in a little box. I believe this little box keeps my fire safe, but it does not. It limits my fire's access to oxygen and does not allow me to fully tap into my fire. My fire needs to be unconfined.

I want to not be afraid of my fire. I want a roaring, raging sense of self (fire) that fuels me and my whole body.

Chakra 4 -- Heart Chakra -- Air, Social identity, oriented to self-acceptance
Currently: I have a full grown up heart that radiates love but it is chained to a fearful little kid heart that gets triggered sometimes, that has asthma, that can't breath and holds her breath, that is ashamed of the empathy and compassion she feels, that feels alone and lonely in feeling so deeply and caring so much.


I want to move the little one into my heart and to let her be loved by me and to let her feel safe to share her love and safe to breath deeply and know there is plenty of fresh air for all. Let the love out and in.


Chakra 5 -- Throat Chakra -- Sound, Creative identity, oriented to self-expression
Currently: My throat chakra is very constricted and as a lid on it. It is not fully open. I am quiet too much and try to ignore and shut down my inner voice. I feel pressure to stay silent to be safe. I hide.



I want a full and open throat chakra connected to my heart and all of me where I can express my truth safely, freely, and completely. I feel safe and grounded and open and connected.

Chakra 6 -- Third Eye Chakra -- Light, Archetypal identity, oriented to self-reflection
Currently: My third eye is out of balance. I am much more attuned to the outside world than my inside world. I often feel overstimulated and struggle with taking in too much stimuli and feeling responsible to do something about it. I feel pressure and crowded and like I close my third eye to myself to try to manage the flow, but that actually makes it worse.


I want a more balanced chakra with equal or greater attenting to myself -- being in tune with myself and doing things to take care of me and surround myself with light and beauty. I want to be able to take in and hold what is on the outside without feeling responsible at the expense of me. I want to feel a little more space from it.


Chakra 7 -- Crown Chakra -- Thought, Universal identity, oriented to self-knowledge
Currently: My lotus flower is small and tentative. It is lightly tethered to me, so it gets pushed around by outside forces. It is closed at times.

I want a big firmly rooted lotus flower. Strong and free and open and bright.